okay.. my day started BAD.. dun wish to elaborate on it..
okay.. the rest of the day was pretty fine.. untill
yep.. LOL.. today got ppl cum see me sia!!
=) thanks man!! huiying CO/ salvo de kai boon and calvin..
lol.. kai boon brought his er hu sia!! lol. i tell him take out den sit there play.. den put his cap to collect donations.. lol.. crapping la.. wahahhaha.. glad they came! =)

den as the day progresses.. i duno wad happen.. (okay la.. i blur la.. but the others are pretty much as clueless as i am) but my colleague unhappy.. hmm, she's the one closest to me at wrk lo.. den i dun dare tok to her.. cos the more u tok to her.. the more pissed off she'll be.. yep.. tired testing the waters many times.. but to no avail..
[okay lar.. to be frank with u gys.. i might seem ok on the outside, owaes wearing a smile.. but i'm actually pretty weak lo..]
yep.. so i fang gong le i still stayed lo..cos she 10.30pm ma.. den i 9pm.. since she still bad mood den i go find other ppl to tok to..
yep.. forgot to blog tt my wrk place came a xiao di di!! LOL.. younger than me sia.. but he's seen a lot frm the society.. so... yep.. had alot of things to listen or chat lar..

chat chat chat.. den i tot she ok le will find me ma.. but i guess i was wrong.. okay la.. chat very long lors.. haiyo.. den at this time hor..

tt HERMiT (the colleague i say go buy yoghurt one) she cum tell me:" eh. She got tok to me lei.. she got tok to u? i tink hor she angry with u sia"

me :: huh.. angry with me? cant be bah.. :x

haiyo.. my whole wrk place de ppl bu shaung her sia.. i was like.. is that possible? cos she looks like she's angry cos of her lors.. she still dare haolian..

damn wad la.. den i go test waters again.. OMG.. she realli act as if i dun exist sia! OUCH!! i can recognize tt cos we do tt to tt colleague ma..


okay.. the other colleague all start eating / packing up la..i din eat cos i seriously no appetite la.. aniwae, hw can anyone hv the appetite to eat wen sth like this happens? i was like" wad did i do? omg.. ok la.. den i tot wad leo said earlier cos my colleague was chatting with the other colleague ma..
[ leo:"sia la.. they tok untill they forgot to help u sia.. see? u worst than tt hermit"OMG.. tt's seriously an insult la.. i just throw a chop-stick at him lo.. play play la.. LOL!! den start throwing at each other!! ]
ok la.. siao siao.. i know he's jokin la.. but hor.. haiyo.. feeling damn lousy abt myself la.. so i took this sentence too.. ZzZz..

den they eat tt time i was like deep in tot lors. den i tink a bit too much la.. den i cried.. yes.. i did..
haiz.. i bet u all know me a few years de oso din realli get to see me cry rt?
OMG.. damn paiseh K? OMG..
but i cant turn the time lors..
dun ask me why i cry la.. i oso dowan cry de.. but i guess i was too sad lor.. den everyone was like teling her to tok to me..etc etc.. yes.. she looked very much like a baddie.. but tt wasnt wad i wanted la!! OMG.. phew.. thank god no one blamed her.. haiyo.. i guess sometimes it's all in the mind la.. den she's the type tt u cry she oso duno wad to do.. den..? she just leave.. Frankie was like:???
haiyo.. damn wad la..they all tried stopping me frm crying la.. den stop le.. someone say sth wrong.. den cry again.. OMG.. i wish they can just act if they din see anitin. seriously feel tt crying in front of other ppl is a very "throw face" thingy.. whoa lao.. i now realli no-image liao la.. ya lors.. oh gosh.. i'll owaes be a xiao mei in their mind even though i'm absolutely not the youngest!!
i'm the type tt cares VERY much abt all these relationships.. yep.. i'm the type tt will die of depression if u dun tok to me lar.. even though i smile dun mean i'm happy.. my smile is like a gesture la.. chim lar.. i oso duno how to explain.. wad i can say is tt there's not much diff btw my fake smile and real smile lar.. so.. yep.. i'm the type tt will tink quite alot abt such stuffs la.. so if u all ignore me or wad.. it's gonna hv a very big effect on me.. yep.. siala.. nvr in my life hv i gotten such treatment lo.. so.. it's kinda new.. and a bit too much for me to accept.. wad's more.. i hvnt realli met ppl who mood no good den ignore practically everyone.. yep.. gotta get used to it!! i firmly believe tt everyone's fighting a harder battle than i am.. so.. yep.. she oso confirm dowan things to be like dat de.. so.. it's due to all those stress la.. plus all other stuff..

i tink hor. the ,main reason is bcos i feel damn lousy abt myself den and tt hermit still say things tt's so super duper insensitive!! oh gosh.. damn sad cos tt hermit la!! irritating.. zhen shi de.. she's the type tt will stomp ur weakest areas wearing killer heels!! imagine ppl wear heels den accidentally step on ur leg la.. u cfm cry rt? den for her.. it's like she purposely one sia!! can die ba?

oh gosh.. realli la.. my heart damn fragile la.. dun break it lors.. though i very fast ok le.. but hor.. i will still rmb the whole thing la.. not in details of course..cos my memory damn bad.. haiyo.. i will rmb the hurt but forget the details.. sth liddat ba.. omg.. i duno how ppl can be totally resistant to these type of things sia.. eh eh.. teach me lei..

i tink i'm the type tt will gv alot of emphasis on friendships and other relationships.. so.. i will feel super duper bad if my clique is like going out den i left out la.. yep.. damn sad case sia.. ppl say u'll get more social life in poly.. but for me hor.. my o lvl year i still can go k box, hit town, play truth or dare in sch or at the aircon food court sia.. den now..band work and all those sch stuff.. HAIZ.. the ever-changing demands of life..

Hmm, sad la..she went home w/o me.. travelled home teary eyed.. of course others was like starring at me.. den no mp3 sia!! OH GOSH.. it's in the other bag!! damn sad la.. with mp3 i still can listen to those emno songs or metal or techno to ease my pain.. but hor.. dunhv lei.. so i was tinking abt those times here i din hv time for my clique and etc.. yes.. my deareset best frens!! dun worry.. Yangyi!! Xiaoyan!! ting ting!! Samuel!! win yin!! we din realli hv the time to go out sia.. okay la.. onli me.. ='( awh.. i owaes kena left out.. zzzz.. i oso in tp yet i know as much as (if not lesser than) wad samuel knows.. damn sad case la..
den melody, ai ling.. miss ya too!! but guess i the most busy one lar.. aiyo.. got aniting oso cmi.. haiZ.. damn sad la.. den band ppl.. yep.. thanks man!! kenny.. joyce thomas kenneth penny simmy.. and my others.. =) of course not forgetting my bnss alumni and my daugthers =) yeah!! eric chiang!! u too!! not forgotten!!
of course la.. hv a whole lot of other ppl.. like my ex classmates.. old frens.. bsc ppl.. chieng chieng.. haha.. huiying too.. u oso very jia lat la.. so many cca..
alot alot of ppl la.. everytime say go here go there end up din go..
i oso sick of it sia..

haiZ.. spent quite alot of time.. tinking thru stuffs.. she wanna quit le.. sad.. haiZx.. wad can i do?
if it's good for her.. den i wun stop her lo..
i guess like wad frankie say la.. u older than me but u hvnt seen as much things as wad i hv seen... true la.. haiyo.. stilllll damn weak lo.. sian.. cry till eye red red.. gosh.. i hope no one will be able to tell tt i hv cried.. unless they read this.. sick la.. haiZ.. if i studied for my o's.. i will hv more time for myself la..
aiyo. dun say le.. yue jiang yue sad..
nvm la.. at least we had stuffs ironed out.. so now feel slightly better la. nvm la.. tml den i ok le..
aniwae.. i tink those sad sad de love songs very nice sia.. =)
duno how to say lar.. the more sad the song is the better it is..

nvm la.. since today is like so bad.. tml must be a fantastic day!! =)
awh.. cant wait for my new hp le.. Grr.. my bro n sis de hp all more expensive than mine sia.. nvm la.. i like the colour and design!! yeah!! friday friday!!!
ZzZzZz.. oh~~ wonderful..
wow.. i guess this entry is super duper long la..
yep.. listening to hui se kong jian by luo zhi xiang.. awh.. cant find luo zhi xiang's "xiao chou yu".. tt song first come out i used to sing it all the time at k box sia.. LOL.. okay.. not as often as i sing FIR's wo men de ai.. nvm la.. settled for luo zhi xiang's zi wo cui mian.. yep.. maybe i shld too!!